you have no clue

no you don't know how i feel
you don't know how much i hate
looking in the mirror to see something that is not me
you don't know what it's like
when you can't even find yourself
when nothing is certain. when nothing is safe.
when you're trapped and there's no one to help you
they keep turning their backs
they keep closing their eyes
they keep saying to you and themselves
that you are just wrong.
You DON'T know what it feels like
to have the wrong name
and wish to god someone will call you
into existence and end the feeling of shame.
you don't know what it's like to see your own
rejecting you.
you don't have a clue what is like
to know you're not gonna make her happy
cause you're a dyke.
she won't even look at you
they won't play with you
they won't share with you
you don't belong.
not even in these clothes
not even in this body
you want home.
you don't know what it's like
to look in the mirror and see someone else.
i want to be me
i want to be loved for who i am
or not to be anymore.